You’re probably thinking, “What’s that?” Smiling, because I just dubbed it, and I highly recommend doing a gratitude audit, fam. Old school pen in a journal. Talk to text or keyboard note on your devices. Anything—just take inventory of a few of the remarkable things G-d’s done in you for you. I can’t stop this morning.
As always, timing’s everything. I’m 60 Wednesday, so I’ve been reflecting back to my birth since the one who birthed me died, but only on one of my life’s major threads. Reflection and epiphanies have been ongoing since we buried my sweet Mummy last year (at 100!), and I entered a new season. This wasn’t for obvious natural reasons. I only know because He told me I would right before He ushered me in. It’s been a supernatural season with a peace I’ve never met before. Started even before my grieving became a less disruptive ambush and just integral—like breathing. I thought I’d feel like an orphan with both parents gone. Instead, G-d’s been bathing me by revealing every secret that’s impacted my life! For someone who loves transparency it’s been crazy. Straight blessing.
My pause to audit allows me to see new, amazing things He’s been doing for me since the moment she birthed me. How He’s protected me from the first broken system I entered (my beloved parents’ family) and preserved what He breathed into me despite being born imperfect and shaped with imperfection all around me.
When we pause for Him, He gets to show us what He’s had for us all along. It’s priceless. He’s always waiting, hands full!
So, I see how He’s preserved my joy and my endlessly loving heart…through all of it. Amazingly? No bitterness. No anger. Just joy. Rich peace. Gratitude that leaves me caught in a happy cycle. The more I gasp in gratitude, the more He reveals…and the longer my audit takes. And it’s all Him. I get no credit—this could’ve turned out as badly as it seemed it would while going through! This is why we can’t catch Him in praise and thankfulness.
I know it’ll take eternity for me to not be done worshiping Him for all the saves He’s squeezed into my lifetime to date—and He’s not done! And THIS…is why we need to keep spare praise on hand! You just never know when you’re going to need it. Deep wells of it! Why praise waits for You, Papa, and why I’m way past grateful.
So, yes. I def recommend a written gratitude audit. Go back with the mindset to find stuff. Keep a record that reassures you of what He’s capable of in your life. Make the time to pause with Him, and stay grateful.
There’s a lifetime of evidence that proves…just how much…You. Are. Loved.
Kena Drumgo 